photography as medicine

sadly it looks way better than it tastes / underwater / quince blossoms / seagull soaring / new spruce buds / more pink tulips / teeny wild strawberry blossoms /Miss dixon this morning / flowering crab in our back garden / daffodils on Ernst's grave / a forest of forget-me-nots / seriously ?!? *

A photograph is a secret about a secret. 
The more it tells you the less you know.
Diane Arbus

There is only you and your camera. 
The limitations in your photography are in yourself, 
for what we see is what we are.
Ernst Haas

photography as medicine
at least I know it's my medicine ... 
it's one of them anyway

When you put four edges around some facts, you change those facts.
Garry Winogrand

Photography is a reality so subtle that it becomes more real than reality.
Alfred Stieglitz

*Yo ! what's up Dude ? a combo bossy pants, task master, constant companion, adored friend, much loved cat, show off, top cat, top dog, top top TOP, control freak, handsome as all get out, very, very athletic + always manages to smell just like fresh laundry. He sits on my desk like this much of every day (that's when he's not snoozing brainstorming in his pillow topped office with a view. Doug's convinced that Oliver is in love with me, in fact D may be a tad jealous of our incredible bond ;-) best cat ever !

g words

gorgeous tabby boy Gussie, Gustopher and/or sometimes Virgil & chillaxin' with the geraniums

do-er

I have enough beach glass to sink a very large ship* lately I'm on the look out for pottery shards

Doing what needs to be done 
may not make you happy, 
but it will make you great.

George Bernard Shaw

I am a certified, dyed in the wool (who knew it ? I know I am super surprised) do-er of things.
I do stuff. I get stuff done. I am a do-er.

I get stuff done. I love to plan, I love a to-do list and I love nothing more than to tick off with a check mark - DONE + seal the deal with a stroke through of a to-do item (neatly penned of course in my hot pink, much loved Cavallini day planner) with, for the sake of a lil' overkill - yes girlfriend you did do that ! and I know you are proud of it ! a hot pink  (or lime or orange) high lighter.   

This however has not felt like it's always been the case, this is a skill I've developed over time and I love it. I love that I've become a do-er of things. Of things that I want to get done. I love cruising through a list. It makes me feel happy, purposeful & accomplished - which ya know can only lead to even better feelings - feelings of self trust, self confidence, pride, purpose, accomplishment ... yadada, yadada ya know ?  It's another of my daily drugs - accomplishment is. I love making a list, considering my day, attempting to be as realistic as possible though at the same time knowing that shit does happen  - it's become a game for me. How close can I come to realizing my goals & to-do's for each day. And lately I'm really trying hard to sprinkle in as much variety (& a few fun things) on the master to-do list 'cause chances are - if it's not on the list it's not apt to be done. 

*that black & white pattern is a bit of a find. I'll show you one day soon, maybe I'll even have another beach glass give away. I have lived here for 20+ years, walking a beach almost daily, sometimes twice daily my beach glass collection is vast and sorted by colour in large size jars which I have 15 of - that's alot of beach glass. Blue is rare-ish, red & yellow very rare. Brown, green, white common almost & lavender rare to common.