Friday, April 23, 2010
ya know Missy Dee (d, d), she's got cheeks of sweetness. Love her
the hurt you embrace becomes joy
I am happy. I feel loved. I feel joy, bliss, contentment, excitement, enthusiasm, zeal, vim, vigour.
I feel lucky, grateful, blessed, safe, secure, cozy.
And a tiny part of me always feels a little sad. It's like a small niggling feeling, like a butterfly or moth fluttering inside me, barely taking up any space but always threatening to bloom into something big and potentially overwhelming. It's like sadness has a small, well kept apartment in my heart and she has been living there comfortably ... forever. I've always felt bad about this sadness, I've always felt that an ongoing goal in my life should be to evict her, get rid of her - once and for all. Be gone sadness ! But in recent days (weeks, months) I'm beginning to realize that instead of trying to make her go away I need instead to get to know her. I think I'll invite her in for tea and I'll befriend her ... because she is a part of me.
Posted by Susan